THIS IS WEIRD AKAYYY! sgt sgt weird. tida tw mcmna saya boleh termimpi.

PANJANG NE DARLING. BERSABAR SEJAA LA AH. MMG GERENTI KW AKAN KETAWA.okayyy. it's a weird weird dream akayy. first first gnii bainee. sa d kmpg sa di tenom. ada ne satu pondok ba sana. drg ckp ada hantu. jd sa beranikan diri sejaa, stay sna slma 3 mlm. lepas tu kan, lepas 3 malam, tiba tiba ada agent dtg sna, drg ckp sa mmg layak jd spy. HAHA. gara gara sa brni stay d pndok tu slma 3 mlm sejaa. pas tu kan, sa di ne satu office ba. sa kena suru bunuh semua org di sana, sa suda kena bg pistol. budu budu ne mimpi sa. dressing sa laa. punya main COOL and AWESOMEEEE! y dressing btul2 mcm spy laa, cool la lau kw tingu. haha. trus sa pkai spek hitam lg mcm terminator nee. trus sa dtg2 seja d office tu kan, smua sa bunuh. trus sa pi ne satu corner laa, ada desk ba sana, ada ne 2 org bertapuk. satu pmpuan jhat. suda sa timbak tp masi hidup. and satu hot guy. sa lum g timbak. haha. then tiba tiba kann, tukar scenery ne. tiba tiba dlm kelas 3a. LOL. sa dduk menyandar pntu ba di blkg tu klas. masi ada tu desk y d office pnya time tu. trus kan, itu hot guy dduk di sblh sa baa. time tu sa pgg jadual kelas tmbahan sa, tnya2 kelas apa kunu lepas tu. then tiba tiba sa tenampak si erwin sma tam dduk di atas meja dkt whiteboard. bepegang tgn lg tu. tp sa diam2 ja time tu, sibuk2 knun becakap ma tu hot guy. pastu kan, tiba tiba tu hot guy buang tu jadual sa p lantai. tida tw npa. then sa diam2 la. marah. trus sa tingu di depan kelas kan, cibuk2 tam dari tu desk, kw tw kaaaaa?! si erwin sma dia becium neeeee! like OMG. tekejut sa ohh. trus sa pusing kepala sa la balik menghadap tu hot guy. then dia senyum2 tba tiba. trus dia tingu sa kan, muka hairan. tiba tiba dia lg cium saya neee. waaa! buli feel oh tu ciuman. ahha. lol. trus tiba tiba lg dtg agent nee. balik lg p scenery office - -" pndai tukar2 ne. sot pnya mimpi. trus kan. tiba tiba ada ne satu chef bg ne kek sma tu agent. then tu agent makan la, "sedapp" dia bilang. trus sa blurr. then tu chef p tmpt sa, dia ckp, "bkn mkanan y dirasa sedap y penting, y pntg dia dtg untuk merasa" dia ckp. ahha! trus ckp ckp ckp kan, tba tba tu agent jd tukang kritik mkanan  bingung sa ohh ma mimpi sa nee time tu. haha. trus kann tba tba lg balik p scene di kelas. si erwin sma tam cer2 d dpn tu whiteboard, dduk2 ats meja. then sa tingu tingu sejaa diurang kan, tiba tiba terbangun ne sa dari tidur. - -"




P/s: jika ada org y tertentu terbaca neeeee. saya sangat tersangat SORRY akayy. bkn sa sengaja jg mimpi bgni. jgn kmu salah faham. i'm just telling you abt my dream. jgn terlampau ambl hati. THANK YOU!

SWEET DREAM! 2 nights in a row. pffffttttt!

mmh, aight. selama 2 hari ne saya bermimpi. sgt sgt weird okayy! sgt la sweet tu mimpi. aight aight. sa kasi cer kw.

1st dream.
me and mel jln jln ba pi tmpt dia. dia ada bt ne satu party, so kami p la sna. since the party invitation said, 'sepa sepa pn buli dtg except for wack peoples!'. party dia ne kan, y mcm swimming pnya baa. dia ada ne satu tmpt di hutan, water slide party la boleh dikatakan. suda kami d tmpt sna kan, omg! pnyaa la. kami mw ikut baitu water slide, kami pn mw test test main. tp you knw what?! dia larang saya - -" dia ckp sa tida patut dtg. then sa merajuk laa, sa duduk2 seja tingu diurang have fun. then sa p tapuk2 ikut diurang men tu water slide. gilaaa weii! pnya tinggi. haha! suddenly kan, dia tenampak baa. trus dia mara2 saya. pnya laa. dia mw tumbuk lg tu saya.
erwin: apa kw buat sini?! kan sa ckp jan dtg!
me: ba apa kw mw?! tumbuk la. apa sa mw tkut. tumbuk sejaaa!
dia tahan la fist dia. dia mw suda tu tumbuk sa tp sa teriak ja balik sma dia. trus dia tarik tgn sa. then dia kasi lepas, mcm dia buang ja baa. punya la time tu. panas tul sa. then sa lari laaa. sa lari dari dia, dari tu tmpt untuk cover2 tears sa. jauh suda dia di blkg kan, sa naik la ne satu bukit. gilaa, lw kw nmpk view dia, PUNYAAAAA CANTIK. like ohmygod! cantik laa. scenery dia, y petang2 tu, mw dekat sunset sdaa. then kann, sa dduk la sana. tiingu tingu tu view. sgt sgt la sa emotional sna tu. suda la view dia cntik, ternangis lg sa time tu. then tiba tiba dia dtg dari blkg, dia dduk sblh sa. RAPAT MANNNNN dia dduk. *tht time y kami break sudaa ahh* sudaa la sa menangis time tu plus tu view y cantekk. dia pgg la tgn sa, dia ckp dia sorry knun. dia tia berniat mw marah sa. sa tingu tmpt lain. trus dia pgg pipi sa,
erwin: kimm baa. tingu lu sini. sorry. sa masi marah ba tu. lgpn kenapa jg kw mw marah and nangis? kita kan teda apa apa suda.
me: ya jadi kenapa la?! kw tida faham jg pa sa rasa kan. 
erwin: haihh. kimm. ba okay please. sorry! i'm very sorry okay? sorry if i ever hurt you.
me: *silence*
erwin: naa npa kw diam?
me: teda laa.
erwin: ohh wait. sa pnh promise kw ba dulu kan. tp nda smpai smpai nee. kw mc mw kaa?
me: whaaat? promise apa lg ne?
erwin: aiyaa. kw lupa suda kaaa?!
me: promise apa lg ne? bila lg?
erwin: aish. y ini baaa. *lean closer to me and suddenly kann, dia kiss lips saya!*
me: *terkejut and close my eyes untuk menghayati itu moment.*
erwin: naa itu. kw lupa suda?
me: aah? *masi blur*
erwin: aish kw neee. mari kw sini. *peluk sa and kiss sa lg*
lama lg tu kami kiss tu. awwww~ and you knw what? sa boleh rasa ba tu kiss, biarpun mimpi sejaa. tht time, saya sedar sudaa y itu hanya mimpi. oh mann! tp apa blh buat. sa kasi biar seja diri sa menghayati tu mimpi. haha. and i was like, OMG. punyaa la sweet time tu. ohh aftr kami kiss tu kan, eee! kw tw?! sa tebangun neeee! spoil oh! haihh. trus at tht time kan, sa text la si tam trus. sa bgtau diaa.

okayy. then time mlm tu kan. saya tkut mw tidur okay. sa tida mw lg temimpi itu dream. sbb sa tkut sa tia dpt kasi lupa dia baa. sa bgtau la tam y sa tkut mw tdur. then dia ckp, "tidur sejaa, leran to like it".. and guess wht? si erwin p like tu komen - -" eeeeeeeee! and si tam ada mention ba sna abt b'sium2. OMG! sa tkut ba erwin ternampak. haha. malunyee i. then ths morning. sa on9 la, tingu2 dia ada cmment tu stats. aaaaaaaaaahh! mesti dia baca tu smua cmment kami! NOO! nervous suda sa time tu. erkk. ohh y td pg pnya mimpi kann, ee! termimpi lg ne. tp ths time diff.

2nd dream
okayy. this time, turn back time p moment y dia kiss d pipi sa tu.

me: kamu nee kan! apa ba masalah kmu mw bergila2 sma sa ne?
rex, erwin, topo: tedaaaa~ *pi luar*
me: eish, budu pnya uranggg.
ada tu 50 sen coin baa. drg main heads or tails. brabis si rex and topo kasi kena si erwin. then suddenly erwin masuk ba. dia p peluk sa dari blkg, dia kiss la sa d pipi.
me: aii? 
erwin: drg cabar baa.
me: ohh ahha.
then rex and topo masuk. time tu erwin p tndas, tukar baju. drg lg kasi kena sa ths time. WTFURK! sa salah pilih ne, sa pilih tails, keluar heads. AAH! rex cabar sa kiss d lips. si topo bilang mana2 sejaa.
time erwin dduk2 sma topo kan, cek2 hp si rex. sa sma rex senyum2 ba. then sa p la blkg si erwin. sa pgg bahu dia and kiss pipi dia. then suddenly dia pusing kepala dia, dia kiss lips sayaaa! *ee npa sa nee, brabis mw dia kiss lips saya?*
rexcy and topo terkejut! tebeliak mata diurang. HAHA. lawak jg  ne lau kw tingu. okaay then. suda habis kami b'kiss kan.sa tnya..
me: wuish! kenapa tiba tiba ne? i tot pipi sejaa.
erwin: naa, nothing. sajaa mw kiss kw di lips.
me: ahh...
erwin: napa? *dia tarik tgn saya, bawa p belakang.*
me: npa lg ne? *tersandar di almari*
erwin: sa mw lg ohh. best nee. *taruh tgn dia, kasi sandar d dinding. and pgg pinggang sa.*
me: wuish. jan buat benda haram sni ahh.
then tiba tiba dia kiss saya. OMGGG! punyaa la. this time sa buli rasa jg neee. AAAAAHHHH! suda kami b'kiss tu, rexcy and topo p tmpt kami. HHAA. terbuka luas luas ba mulut drg ne.
them: astga! jealous oh saya!!!
me and erwin ketawa2 ja, then dia bg sa last kiss d pipi. then sa terbangun dari mimpi saya! NO!

p/s: mmh, pnjang sua ne. haha. ee sa btl btl mw dia kiss saya okay! dia la first love saya. menyesal jg sa act mcm budak2 kuat mara sma dia. tinguu, dia kasi lepas sa sda T.T for the last time la, i guess. ERWIN EDWIN DEOCAMPO. SA CINTA KAU, SA SAYANG KAU!

i am so damn frustrated w my cold damn life.

heyyyyyyyyy! sa sgt sgt heran laa. saya kuat merajuk kaaaa? sa tida sedar pn ohh. mmh, okay. klau mmg dicakap bgtu sda, aight, i understand. i'll try to change. sbb itu laa dia mlas mw layan saya. AIGHT! okay. i will promise myself to change. myself, not him. i think it's abt time for me to not post abt him. since we're over. there's no use if i talk abt him when he's no feeling for me alr. because SAYA MEMBORINGKAN. saya kuat merajuk. saya kuat marah. i'm not blaming him to describe me that way, i'm blaming myself being stupid to act tht way. it is time for me to force myself to forget him. to force myself to move on even if i know i can. just to let you know, erwin, if you're reading ths. no matter what you say, or what they say, you're always on my mind. but i will try to move on even if i can't forget about you :)

bila sa dgr ne lagu blog kan stay-miley cyrus, sa mesti teringatkan dia. heran. tp sa mw try move on sudaa.

mmh. saya tida tw laa. tp time sa dgr ne lagu kan, sa teringatkan dia. idk, sbb ne lgu mmg ada meaning ba. i'm confused. tp, apa blh buat. skgg sa mw try move on sudaa, bcos klw sa mc mengharapkan dia, teda guna jg klw dia boring sua. tp sa blum ready la mw cari y baru. by baru i mean, diff guys. HAHA. biar laa. sa ambl cuti dulu laa. biar la, teda jg org mw syaa baa. kannnnn? :)

okayy, kesian ne blog. sa jd dia sebagai luahan perasaan saya. sorry ah blog but teda tmpt lain suda sa mw luahkan ne.

heyy :o sorry tersgt sgt yaa bloggey. haha. hmp. lately kan, sa rasa terpinggir ne. tida tw la npa. makin sa diam diam, makin sa rasa terpinggir. tp lau sa bising pn, sma jg. sa tidaa tw la. alang2 bgus saya diam sejaa la. tida jg sa skit hati. hmp. lately kan, erwin jarang2 suda peduli tntg sa. idk laa. but saya ada feeling y dia boring sua sma sa. sa tida puas hati ba dgn layanan y dia bg ma sa. so time cyf, sa text la dia. sa tnya dia knpa dia tida rep texts sa smua, and if i bore him to death kaa. dia ckp dia lngsung teda mood texting, tp mood texting ma tamara ada laa. doi. balik lg gaya dia y dulu. ahh biar laa. mmh, then, y about boredom tu. dia ckp dia boring sua cple cple. so sa bg la dia 2 options.
1) kasi gantung relationship.
2) break sejaa.
so he chose 2. because i said sa tida mw dipermain2kan. and so now, saya SINGLE! idk laaaaaaaaaa. sa tida tw apa mw bt lg kan. so sa trima sejaa jwpn dia. and ths time, no hard feelings. saya akan kasi biar sejaa fikiran sa melayang. let him be happy without me. yesss! lgpn, how would i knw if he's the one for me? if he's right for me? they say, if you love someone or something, let them go. if they come back, the it's yours. betul kaitu? well, i just have to wait for that moment till it comes. ain't i'm right. hee :) just to let you guys know, I AM PERFECTLY FINE. plus, i don't have to get over-reacted. it's okay if ppl don't appreciate me for who i am. as long as i live in God's name, i'll be alright. it's fine. if he was bored of me, it's okay. i understand tht i sometimes bore people. it's a natural thing-the breakups. DON'T PUT YOUR WORRIES ON ME. i'm okayy, aight? :)

HAHA. today was so damn funny w Erwin ♥ and Maegan :) bergila kami di facebook.

bloggie :) hey hey! what is up, yo? :D haha.

okay today sgt sgt la lawak. me and Maegan pg scam si Erwin. aha! lol~ bnyk la kami p tag dia d cmment kmi. 'merajuk' ba dia trus *knun* trus dia pg block lg wall post dia spya kami nda dpt post d wall dia. kurang asamm pnya laky ne tw. aiyaa. penakut tul. HAHA.

wiee ;D bloggey, you knw wht, having a conversation w maegan gives me a great idea. MAKE A REUNION for the year 6 2008. waii~ rindu sgt sa mw jmpa ging ging saya y dulu, biarpn almost of them all schl d ttf. HAHA.

okay saya boring. saya tida tw suda apa mw ckp dlm topic ne.

p/s: ILOVEYOU erwin edwin deocampo. haha. keboringan, jd sa ckp seja la <3

i hate this kind of feeling.

sweet ♥ ;)

i don't know what to say. nana told me to just tell him the truth but i don't know what words should i say.

BLOGGIE! NANA TOLD ME TO JUST TELL HIM THE TRUTH. OMG! I JUST CHECKED THE ALICIA'S PREDICTIONS AND THIS IS WHAT IT SAID:

''Kimberly honey, be daring and honest when your admirer seeks you out for you might be surprised at how life opens up to changes.''

ohh. damn :/ then maybe i should be honest w him. or maybe, i could just tell him everything here. well, i just did. my previous post. gahh! damn, i'm missing him now. 

READ THIS ERWIN.

 

HEY ERWIN, IF WE'RE TOGETHER AGAIN, CAN YOU BE THIS KIND OF GUY? I KNOW YOU'RE SWEET BUT YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO SHOW IT. 

Find a guy who calls you beautiful not hot, who calls you back when you hang up, who will lie under the stars and listen to your, heartbeat or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks your pretty without makeup on. The one who turns to his friends and says that's her. 

well, can you?

you want honesty? real honesty? i'll tell you here.

dear bloggie. okay, HONESTLY, i can't get him out of my mind. help me? ;( i dnt knw what to do. if i tell him, there's no use. cause we're just friends. there's nothing special abt us anymore. gosh! this is hard. what should i do? okaayyy~ i will tell you the truth, i really do, i still love him. it's hard to let him go. i guess, it's because we're just friends but sometimes he treat me like his own girl. i think that's why it's hard to let him go. ;/ this is hard. so hard. can someone, just tell me what to do now?! tell me what's the right thing! i watched transformers last night, i cried. because, well i was jealous of others' relationships are SWEET and ROMANTIC. but if we're together, where did the sweetness go? it's my fault. i can't control my feelings. i get mad too quick. i just can't let him be HIMSELF. i'm such a jerk. i know that. i bet he's moving on. i can't make it better now. i just hope he's happy now. i'll try to move on, even if i couldn't, i'll just give people my fake smiles ;) just to let them know, I still love you, E.

suddenly, i want to 'experience' this. ;/ damn. teringat scene Transformers. sgt romantic.

MY RELATIONSHIP STATUS?

heyy heyy bloggie! mmh, saya sekarang?well..i'm living a single life now. yess, kami break sudaa. dia y mw bcos dia tida sanggup ada pergaduhan. i mean pergaduhan y everyday mesti ada punyaa. mmh, it's okay baa. i'm fine jg. broken heart tu, mmg sure ada. BUT i'll try to move on and be happy ;D haha. so don't worry ahhh. but i'll still love him when i'm gone. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY.

LOL w my buddies today at schl on thursday. great day! ;D

dearr bloggie! okay sekian berapa lama saya tida hadir p schl (2 hari seja pn) HAHA. kemarin sgt la best! after eng, kami semua turun kelas la dari eng resos. then, tiba tiba cgu nancy pgl sa untuk tlg drg olsen kasi siap itu eng drg kan, tp padahal~ sudah siap ba diurang. sengaja stay stay sana. haha. trus sa and bk ikut ikut la stay ma drg. sejarah ba kami time tu, tapi 1 masa ja. kami escape skejap ne, 20 minit kami escape. haha! bukan cgu marah. LOL~ bnyk la lawak kami time di eng resos tu. dari pagi smpai habis schl ketawa ja sa. teda muram muram ne. haha!