you want honesty? real honesty? i'll tell you here.

dear bloggie. okay, HONESTLY, i can't get him out of my mind. help me? ;( i dnt knw what to do. if i tell him, there's no use. cause we're just friends. there's nothing special abt us anymore. gosh! this is hard. what should i do? okaayyy~ i will tell you the truth, i really do, i still love him. it's hard to let him go. i guess, it's because we're just friends but sometimes he treat me like his own girl. i think that's why it's hard to let him go. ;/ this is hard. so hard. can someone, just tell me what to do now?! tell me what's the right thing! i watched transformers last night, i cried. because, well i was jealous of others' relationships are SWEET and ROMANTIC. but if we're together, where did the sweetness go? it's my fault. i can't control my feelings. i get mad too quick. i just can't let him be HIMSELF. i'm such a jerk. i know that. i bet he's moving on. i can't make it better now. i just hope he's happy now. i'll try to move on, even if i couldn't, i'll just give people my fake smiles ;) just to let them know, I still love you, E.